I had to start taking anti-depressants. There's nothing wrong with that especially of you really need it. I take Wel-Butrin 150mg/day. Ask your doctor about it.

But it sounds like to me you're just in a slump right now. Just focus and get your priorities straight and try to get organized. It will pass.

It is a very hard thing to get a hold on. I have the same exact problem and am probably twice your age
I am on prozac right now which has helped a little but tomorrow I am going back to the counselor cuz I just can't take it any more Its so embarrassing to feel useless and unworthy and stupid I wish I could rid everyone that feels that way of it because it really SU_KS! And what makes it worse is my brother just killed himself And I know exactly why because I can feel what he was going through I really hate feeling this way !Hang in there email me if you like you know, misery loves company

Maybe stopping to go and see your therapist was a little early for you to do so. Sometimes we think we are fine when in reality we are not quite there yet.
Write down a list to take to your therapist hun of all of the things you are feeling, then at least they know what they are dealing with and can counsel you accordingly.
Are you on any medication right now, there is no shame in taking meds, thats what they are there for, to help you. The chemical inbalance in your brain, which is why you feel the way you do, is stabalized by these type of meds.
You have to be happy on the inside hun before you can be truly happy on the outside.
Write down some goals that you want to achieve, they dont have to be huge ones, little steps at a time.
You have to face this head on as hard as it seems right now.
we all have regrets hun, but you must not dwell on them, making mistakes is normal, its just natures way of us learning.
Never let peoples judgment of you bother you, as long as you know what you are doing is the right thing.
Having suicidal thoughts is more common than you think , but you must let your therapist know you are having them even though you feel you wont carry it through ok.
Hiding yourself away is also very normal when you are this depressed, and isolating yourself from friends and things you love to do. I t will pass ok hun. Make sure your diagnosis is a correct one, and one you are confident in, there are many forms of depression related condititions such as Bipolar. Once you get the correct diagnosis then you can start to move forward.
The important thing to remember is little steps every day, if you take a step backwards one day thats ok to, we all fall over every now and again, as long as we get back up thats all that matters.
Your self confidence will come back over time once you have started to move forward. Remember your only limitations are the ones you set yourself. Your "I CAN " is much more importand than your "IQ".
So make today the first one of your little steps and start to move forward, make that appointment with your therapist, take a deep breath and tell yourself YOU CAN DO THIS. We are all here for you supporting you.

first of all...theer are 100's iof people that feel like you do.
Your not a horrible person and you shoudl remeber this.
I knwo it is hard .. i see paattern with people with OCD's and self confidence.
I have low self confifdence and it can be a dangerous thing.
you should never be thinking of suicide this hurts more people and makes things worse!
if seeing a theipist worked then you shud go back
good luck sweetie!
xxxx